It's a cooooolllld winter night with rain, sleet and snow. That's saying something in North Central Texas, we're expecting 1-3 inches of snow. It will be melted by tomorrow, fortunately, because I have outdoor plans. No RogueLemmings plans, just simply stuff that needs to be done, requiring gloves.
Tonight all the babies (my pets) are fed, they had some warm chicken w/ their chow, and they are all looking at me wondering what "we're" going to do next. It doesn't really matter what "we" do as long as we're all doing it together. The cats love to curl on the computer desk and nest under the lamp while I'm in front of the monitor. The dogs will curl at my feet or move under my legs and push them up to get my attention. They'd much rather I interact w/ them.
I've moved all the boxes out from under and behind the desk. I believe we'll sort through them discarding more than I keep. Perhaps a favorite ball or catnip mouse will show up.
I have firewood in the back yard but it's all wet. Tomorrow I'll bring some in to dry possibly in time for New Year's Eve.
It's midnight, dogs snoring, and I'm studying, ...sorta
Looks like my summer plans have changed, so I'm going to do some rearranging if I can. 2nd summer session doesn't appear necessary, but I suppose I could take something else. We'll see.
My house needs some furniture, and I need a bed. This couch is killing me!!!
I could put the world's top secret here and nobody would ever see it.
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Nebba Ebba
Make'a the mistake'a assuming a class will be easy or simply logical. Financial accounting practices are like an oxymoron.! "Cash in" is logged as a debit, ...huh??? Assets are logged and journaled as debits, ...huh??? Payments and liablilities are logged as credits, ...okay now I get it, ... NOT!
The classes I feared the most I'm doing well in, ... maybe due to the attention and homework I've invested. (But then I haven't had to do any presentations yet, 5 of them coming up @ 4-6 min each...FEAR. We're all human, ...I'll just do what I'm required to do, ...it's just a little pride sacrificing and humiliation due to my own embarrassment.) Now I have to pour myself into the Financial accounting course, ...and to think I almost majored in this ridiculously BORING subject!!!!!!
2.72 inches of rain today since about noon, ...sheesh! And it freezes tonight and tomorrow, but the weatherman promises that most of the moisture will move eastward.
Tomorrow, no firm plans (that I can remember off hand) so maybe I can practice the guitar, and maybe Chip will come over. Lori is so excited about the NY trip in March, ...she called me again yesterday. We do need to figure out what to pack for snow skiing and determine if we're shipping the luggage or carrying on board. I'm leaning to just carry this time, but we'll see.
I still need to get to the gym, ...so many things I'd like to do, ...somehow I need to work them all in. I think right now I'm trying to find my comfort zone w/ school and 4 courses. It's the most important thing, ...crappy old study habits still haunt me, ...I'm so afraid of failure. I've sabotaged myself in the past (but now I know it was AD/HD related), ...still have nightmares from junior high, oddly enough. My meds help me so much it's remarkable, ...but it's the old habits that I need to reshape, ...I'm not ruled anymore by my disability. Thank God for that!!!
Life is good, ...I still have the power to mold my world, ...I have the drive, ...I just need more energy, lol.
School starts tomorrow
My spring class schedule is intimidating, but I'll press forward. So many instructors want student speech presentations, ...not up my alley at all!
The weather's beautiful, I've had a great day, I've gotten things done.
It's 10:15pm, ...I have to be up by 6:00am, usually no problem but my natural "clock" is all out of whack. I could do a music lesson or read, ...still up in the air, but I'm not going to stay up past midnight, ...that would be sabotage.
I'm really talking to you, Duncan. I "think" you want to know what I'm doing, at least a little bit.
Guess what, ...I'm interested in what you're up to too. But I will leave you be until I can't stand it any longer. ;)
I had a great time. :)
I got home probably an hour or so ago, maybe a little longer. It's great getting together w/ this group of gals, ...Terry (sis), Kathy, Lynda, Chrissy and Gay, ...Laurie (gal that lives almost 1.5 hrs away) couldn't make it. We can really let our hair down. You are a very favorite subject, my "fido", ...my friends continue to be sooo excited and looking forward to any new happenings.
It's been a week since I last spoke to you, ...I think about you everyday in the warmest way. You should know that I'm doing my best to give you the space I think you want, and you also need to know that in no way am I content not speaking with you. You are the light of my life.
I love you, I need you, and I miss you, ...but I also trust you. If you need to reach me, then I believe you will, ...I certainly hope you will.
I'll talk to you very soon.
It's so much cozier in here...
Not all that viagra pushing, lol!!!
I almost forgot I have a Keno game tonight, ...just peeking in, ...off I go.
My dear Webmaster, ...I hope you're having a delightful weekend. I'm having a nice one, ...have much to do, did a bit, but next duty of order, ...I have a party to go to.
Tomorrow will be a productive one, ...let's hope!
**waving**
A ray of light
I believe a plant has sprouted.
** wonders why the site modifications and content removal **
Sending lots of love through cyberspace, ...and strength.
** a tumbleweed blows across
** a tumbleweed blows across the page **
** kicks at the dirt **
** looks around and sees no one for hundreds of miles **
** sigh **
It's just the craziest thing ...
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Posted December 31st, 2009 by Fancy
I'm sitting here working at my computer, and then the dogs let me know it's time to eat. Bosco peers into the dog food bin, ...this dog continually entertains me. So for the first time in I don't know how long, ...I actually want to go out. I don't want to sit at home. Weird, I meet my son, I meet people, I have a good time, actually extended good times, and now I feel like "what the heck am I doing at home and not out w/ people, or anywhere for god's sake?!". I knew I was coming out of reclusion but only at a tip toe pace at least a few months back, but immersion into happy social activities, back to back holiday celebrations w/ my son, his family and friends, and my family and his gf's family and friends has quickly peeled away any layers of cloaking.
It's all good, I just never expected to feel alone. I've been quite comfortable for a very long time being alone, years in fact, and I never felt alone, till tonight. The difference is I'm not escaping, ...I'm looking forward to interacting w/ people. I'm not sad or anything, ...I just feel like I should be mingling and stirring up some fun on New Year's Eve.
Oh my, this next year is going to be something! Thank god I'm broke, ...all the more reason to focus on school! ;) There's still that irresponsible part of me that could just go bonkers like I did after I divorced, ...I don't need to go down the same road twice, ...and of course, I wouldn't, but I feel the wild pull. I hope I keep control, ...I should. Focus. No problem, I've already got a full schedule lined up for Spring. And I have goals and I have a very special concern that will keep me toeing the line.
Here's to 2010.
Wednesday evening, Christmas break
It's been a lovely day, 56º for a high. I finally unloaded my F-150 truck bed that was full of remodeling debris. I visited my dad and his dog Buddy and his bird Micky, and Dad helped me unload the truck. I'm shocked that we got the whole load in the dumpster and the lid actually closed. Then I took my truck to get washed, layers upon layers of mud and dirt from the road work in my neighborhood along w/ the salt and & sand on the road due to icy conditions. Sadly, when I pulled into my neighborhood my truck was spattered w/ the muddy road renovations, ...oh well, it has only one layer on the lower half at this point. It's almost presentable. I heard my engine rattle which concerned me so I checked the oil, ...there was this burny kind of smell which made me nervous, ...I checked the oil stick and it looked really low. :::I'm scared::: Fortunately, I added one quart and it was more than enough, ...I was afraid it was really low.
Tonight I enjoyed a Grand Parisian salad from Costco along w/ some red wine splashed w/ champagne over a glass packed w/ ice. It was really good, except I thought I was only going to eat a third, then I made a third more and now I'm eating the last third. It's tasty, at least it's not lasagna. I know you're dying to know, ...it's full of fancy lettuces w/ julienne carrots, frosted almonds, dried cranberries, feta cheese w/ white balsamic dressing. mmmmmmmm
I just realized that I need to bring in some of the firewood so that it's dry enough to burn tomorrow evening. Okay, in a minute w/ a flashlight and rubber boots.
I just filled out my EG Voluntary Registry form, now to get it notarized and mailed.
So much to do, ...classes start on the 19th, so 2.5 weeks. I have to find my classrooms, hell, I have to find the campus in NW Ft Worth, ...it's 40 friggin miles away. Half my classes are there and the other half are in SE Arlington, thankfully.
My home is peaceful.